Feb 14, 2012

Letter #1


Dear Sayur...

Beta seng ada maksud dan tujuan lain kasih se ini selain beta cuma pengen se tau ose satu-satunya orang yang sungguh buat beta bahagia. Bahagia yang belum pernah beta rasain sebelumnya :) Mungkin ose bosan dengarnya, tapi beta paling sayang ose. Seakan-akan seng pengen lepas dari se. Jujur aja, beta baru pertama sayang orang kayak gini, dan beta bersyukur apa yang beta lakuin itu seng bertepuk sebelah tangan :') Seng ada orang yang buat beta rasa begini seperti apa yang se buat ke beta. Everything you do makes me fall in love with you. I fall a little harder each and everyday. Beta tau apa yang beta mau, dan apa yang beta mau itu ose, Sayur, bersama ose. Beta seng mau orang lain yang lebih baik, cuma se. To be completely honest, beta lebih baik berkelahi deng ose daripada beta bahagia deng orang lain. Beta lebih pilih miliki ose di beta hidup, sekalipun itu berarti katong berantem, daripada seng miliki se dalam beta hidup sama sekali. Beta lebih baik gila deng ose daripada waras tanpa se! Hahaha! You are the greatest thing that's ever happen to me, Sayur. Halah, gombal yah :P Beta cuma seng pengen salah satu atau katong dua nyerah. Karena beta bakal berjuang demi beta mimpi uang su jadi nyata ini. Yah...kalaupun suatu saat nanti ose nyerah atau beta yang nyerah (naudzubillahiminzalik! tolak!), se perlu tau satu hal bahwa ose bakal beta ingat tanpa rasa penyesalan sedikitpun selama beta hidup. Ose berarti, Sayur. Ose berarti bagi beta. Ose buat beta speechless, kata-kata yang se ucap, ekspresi wajah yang se buat...lucu! Aneh! :P Seng tau e, beta rasa se paling ngertiin beta. Makasih banyak yah :) Tapi beta sampai sekarang masih bertanya-tanya, kok bisa ya? Hehe. Ngomong-ngomong tentang Ngurbloat nih, beta pernah dapat kalimat ini: "It's not the way you plan it, it's how you make it happen." Beta kalo baca kalimat barusan, beta jadi ingat ose janji untuk bawa beta ke sana. Beta yakin suatu saat nanti katong dua bisa pasti bisa kesana (amin). Entah kapan, seng tau kata bulan Juni ini, atau Desember, atau 10 tahun yang akan datang...beta percaya katong dua akan wujudkan itu sama-sama (amin). Eh, tapi se su dengar lagunya Taylor Swift yang judulnya Ours? Jang se dengar lay, beta tau se seng akan suka. Tapi ini ada penggalan lirik lagunya yang beta pengen sampaikan ke se: "The jury's out, but my choice is you. So don’t you worry your pretty little mind. People throw rocks at things that shine. But they can’t take what’s ours. They can’t take what’s ours. The stakes are high, the waters rough. But this love is ours." :) Sayur...beta udah cukup banyak ditinggalin. Dan ditinggalin itu sakit. Dengan ini beta memohon, jangan tinggalin beta yah? Jangan kecewain beta. Beta mau katong dua jalani saja dulu semua ini. Cuma pengen bilang, beta berikan beta kepercayaan buat se, kepercayaan yang begitu banyak. Plis, jangan hancurin itu yah. Beta tau se seng bakal lakuin itu kok, iya kan? :) Beta juga pengen minta maaf atas segala kesalahan yang pernah beta buat. Beta tau beta udah banyak ngerepotin se, beta ngeselin, jengkelin, nyebelin. Beta masih belum terbuka. Beta padede. Suka ngambek. Masih suka malu hati. Masih kekanak-kanakan. Masih manja, dan lain-lain. Beta minta maaf :( Beta seng bermaksud kayak gitu. Beta jua kan takut se marah (jujur nih) :( Trus juga beta minta maaf kalo beta tulis surat ini, bukan berarti beta seng berani ngomong langsung, cuma...seperti yang se bilang: beta yang tulis, dan ose yang baca :P Hmm...sebelum beta tutup surat ini, masih ada yang pengen beta katakan... I dare you to let me be your one and only. We could be more than this, right? Are you willing to risk it like me? Because the thing is... I LOVE YOU. I really do, Sayur...
Tahukah kamu mengapa Tuhan meciptakan langit dan laut? Semata agar kita tahu, dalam perbedaan ada batas yang dapat membuat mereka indah dipandang.
Sudah to? Jang merasa kurang lay e...bagi beta ose itu perfect :) (jang ge-er dolo hehe, canda :p)


ILY ♥

Feb 10, 2012

Here are my compliments to you, Sayur!! :)


You and I are going to be alright. We know that, right?
There will come a time in your life when you become absolutely infatuated with a single soul. For this person, you would do anything, and not think twice about it. But when asked why, you have no answer. You will try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you will never find out. And no matter how badly it hurts or how badly you hate it, you will love this person for the rest of your life without regret.

How is home?

It's been almost 3 weeks since I'm not home... And to be honest, I really miss my home and my family right now! Things happened to me without them knowing anything. Yeah, I know that we've been busy with our own lives. And that I'm hiding something from them. I miss to spend my time with them, to talk with them, to have quality time. I was thinking about my little brother, Kamil who will face the national examination in April. I was worry about him. I really wanna share things with him, 'cause I guess he needs me. I feel like that is my responsible to ask him how is his preparation to face national exam going. If you know me in real life, you must be so confuse. Why? Because I am a cruel, evil and indifferent older sister to my own siblings, and now I'm asking about them? Funny, huh? I realized it now... God, I want to change. I wanna be a good daughter, who will not oppose my parent. I wanna be a good sister, who will always help my little brothers whenever they need me. Please show me the way, God. All I wanna do is go home and be with my family :(

At least you'll know,
you're beautiful every little piece love,
and don't you know your really gonna be someone ask anyone.
And when you find everything you looked for,
I hope your life leads you back to my front door.
Oh but if it don't will you stay beautiful...
Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau condongkan hati kami kepada kesesatan setelah Engkau berikan petunjuk kepada kami, dan karuniakanlah kepada kami rahmat dari sisi-Mu, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemberi.

We are given the opportunity to make this happens. Together we choose this path. And I call this destiny

Feb 7, 2012

He really is. He just fits in my heart perfectly :)

See? The difference is not an obstacle, but it is the road to equality. You're right, Sayur :)
"Knowing that you’re loved by someone makes every morning worth getting up for."

— Fildzah Adhania

Feb 5, 2012


Know that you are not alone. It's not all your fault. Just want you to not give up. Struggle hard, dear. If you're out, you'll just make everything worse. The defeat is the motivation. Know that the competition is not over yet. We need you in the team. I do need you too! Please think about it. I love you so much I just want the best for you.

Feb 4, 2012


"10 tahun lagi... Beta akan bawa se ke sana, tapi dalam konteks yang berbeda"

— Sayur

Yeah. I do believe in you, honey. I trust you and I know you won't break it. May be not now, may be in this June, may be in this December, or may be 10 years later with another story of us... I just wanna be there with you, Sayur. Only you. And all I can say is: AMIN :)

Jan 29, 2012

If you really wanna live, don’t give a damn about what others say or think and just do what you want to do.


Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart

We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you

Jan 28, 2012


Have you ever seen the sky? It’s beautiful. A billion souls walk under it every single day & don’t even bother to look up & wonder what’s out there. There’s so much we still haven’t learned. So much that the scientists won’t even figure out in your life time, & its your job to wonder, to dream, & to try & find the mysteries behind all that lies in your path. Next time you’re outside in the middle of the night, look up. Wonder what’s out there.

Jan 27, 2012

The jury’s out, but my choice is you ♥

So don’t you worry your pretty little mind. People throw rocks at things that shine. But they can’t take what’s ours. They can’t take what’s ours. The stakes are high, the waters rough. But this love is ours

I want you

I want you to hug me. I want you to keep me warm. I want you hold my hand and never let go. I want you to be by my side. I want you to make me laugh. I want you to tell me funny jokes. I want you to be always there for me. I want you to cheer me up when I’m sad. I want you to look at me in the eyes. I want you to play a guitar & sing to me. I want you to listen to me. I want you to be with me forever.